Wednesday, November 11, 2009

One year anniversary

This day last year, I was told I had cancer. It's my one year anniversary today--Remembrance Day has a whole other meaning for me now. I'm trying not to be negative about it, that it was the first day of getting better, but all I can think about is how it's the day my life changed forever. When I read books about people's experiences and they would talk about the one year diagnosis anniversary, I would think how great it would be, it being just a memory, all in past tense. But it isn't. It's so much closer to me than I thought it would be at this point. I still feel shell shocked. What the hell happened? Yes, I'm better --my hair is growing back, my energy levels are just starting to get better and my depression starting to calm itself down. But I'm still flat chested and will be for awhile and I have oncology follow up appointments and blood tests every 3 months. It's still so fresh and I hope it's will fade with time. I don't want to forget, just move on.

I feel it's time to retire this blog, which helped me get through one of the most difficult years on my life. I'll still write the MoreofLess blog though. Thank you for reading.